For a longtime I considered whether I should start writing this blog. For the last 3-4 months I have tried to put you out of my mind and i have failed miserably.I even ended up sending a message to you which might have caused more harm to your happy life.
I miss you in every way and specially the comfort i had in talking with you. Frankly I had never felt such comfort talking to anyone else in my life. And thats why i decided to write an email to you whenever i feel the pain multiplying inside me. and dont worry my dear i am not going to send you this emails. You wont read all this.. and i am not going to mention anyone in the email and your name too will be kept hidden.
But if ever you are reading this.. Then it means that you have not forgotten our old conversations and you still care for me... If you are. do not comment or let me know that you are reading this.. Because thats actually a painful scenario where i failed to keep the true love of my life to myself.
I need to try to make my mind believe that you never cared for me.. that you just used me for your benefits.. that you just wanted to talk to me only as a replacement to your childhood friend who got married.. that you were selfish and just wanted your life to be happy irrespective of who suffers.
I had compiled the above list to keep reminding myself that you are such a girl.. I am not having much success at that though.. But i need to keep trying again and again.Or else .. I dont know my dear...
Hope you are happy in your new life and wish you a prosperous life. Meanwhile I will keep pouring my heart out in this Blog.
My vattulla Malakha
yours
Idiot
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