I dont have words anymore ... Certain thoughts have started to come up in my mind and those thoughts are killing me. I dont know what to say..It seems almost like some part of my mind has still not accepted the fact that you are married.
I know its wrong.. but thats the truth..I didnt want to see you in a changed fashion in front of my eyes... thats the only reason i almost gave my resignation letter .. Fortunately the transfer offer came and i am still not sure whether i should have accepted that or not.. I wanted to move you from my inner mind and for that resigning was the only way out. But i almost went by the pressure exerted by the people around me( People who actually cared for me).and took the offer..... But what has happened is that every now and then i am kept reminded about you in some way or the other.
I really feel accepting the transfer offer was a mistake
I could even remember you asking me relentlessly not to resign.. but to take the transfer offer.. apparently you did not want me resigning to be there in your conscience.
But my dear.. I have become a person with no defined personality.. unable to let go of my past life... thats what has happened.. I dont blame you anymore .. I should have stood by my decision to resign and start a new life.
God knows how long i can go like this.. I had no issues in waiting for you years if there was some hope of you returning.. But this is just torture.. You will not understand it .
Yours
Idiot
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