Work is worship.. thats what I am trying to do now.. get fully involved in the work I do in the office so that everything else is forgotten for sometime at least..Absolutely no loose talks .. no chitchats.. just work after work after work.. I have a feeling that it is working now because i am at peace for some time and also the top management seems to be liking my over dedication to work as their work gets done faster.
But certain moments do arise everyday when I am forced to think about what I am actually now.. A person who has nothing worthwhile to think about.. a person who just couldn't hold on to what he wanted....Such moments bring me back to the reality of life.
I am not sure my dear, but I have a feeling that ****** is too busy these days. I had messaged her and even called her multiple times over the past one month to enquire about her daughter. She was busy with her daughters hospital visits then. Maybe she is still busy with that. But I dont know I have a feeling something else is amiss. I am not going to talk to her again about that anyways.. maybe it was just my stupid doubt.. ..as you always used to say whenever I tell you my silly doubts. I only hope her daughter is okay.
As you know I have stopped whatsapp altogether.. I had installed whatsapp only for you and it eventually ended with you.. I dont spend time on Facebook too these days. just 2- minutes of glance over the wall posts and I get bored .. I dont phone anyone now.. most of the time my phone is in switched off state.. completely away from everything. I dont know what I am doing my dear.. but something or the other is forcing me to do like this..
As I have told you many times when you tell me how jealous you are about me professionally....."I maybe good in professional life but I am a failure in my personal life and you are my only hope of changing that."
I lost that opportunity and here I am succumbing to failure.
Idiot
But certain moments do arise everyday when I am forced to think about what I am actually now.. A person who has nothing worthwhile to think about.. a person who just couldn't hold on to what he wanted....Such moments bring me back to the reality of life.
I am not sure my dear, but I have a feeling that ****** is too busy these days. I had messaged her and even called her multiple times over the past one month to enquire about her daughter. She was busy with her daughters hospital visits then. Maybe she is still busy with that. But I dont know I have a feeling something else is amiss. I am not going to talk to her again about that anyways.. maybe it was just my stupid doubt.. ..as you always used to say whenever I tell you my silly doubts. I only hope her daughter is okay.
As you know I have stopped whatsapp altogether.. I had installed whatsapp only for you and it eventually ended with you.. I dont spend time on Facebook too these days. just 2- minutes of glance over the wall posts and I get bored .. I dont phone anyone now.. most of the time my phone is in switched off state.. completely away from everything. I dont know what I am doing my dear.. but something or the other is forcing me to do like this..
As I have told you many times when you tell me how jealous you are about me professionally....."I maybe good in professional life but I am a failure in my personal life and you are my only hope of changing that."
I lost that opportunity and here I am succumbing to failure.
Idiot
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