Love is not an obsession.
I Myself have thought for a lot of time whether what I am going through these days or what i am doing now will count as obsession or not? But I know for sure for now that its not obsession i have .. it is just the repercussions of love.. because you did mean a lot to me and i cant get over you ..
For sometime I was under obsession too. even after your marriage I messaged you a few times when the obsession part in me took over .. I am completely at peace with that now and I am happy actually that you are happy .. but I am not happy that you are not enjoying that happiness with me..
As I have promised I will never stand in your way.. you choose someone else over me ,, and you are happy now.. what does that mean? it means you never required me .. you were self reliant.. it was me who required you and I should have hold on to you.. But at that time i had thought that love should be from both sides and you too should show some intent that you need me.,. you never did that .....even though I had literally begged you to give me a second chance to convince your father.. I am not sure that would have gone well .. but i was ready to try.. i was completely taken back by your father who suddenly started to beg me not to destroy his family.. i am not a hard hearted person not to think that and tell him I want to marry your daughter still..
Now that I think about all that.. I believe that had you given me a second chance to talk to him.. I could have found a way for us to be together.. of course you needed to show some intent too..
Frankly. I never thought you leaving me will affect me this much.. what i am feeling now and experiencing now is beyond the imagination of what I could have ever dreamt of..
And my dear.. this is not obsession.. this is just the other side of love.. the pain..
I wont come in your life.. and I dont want it as long as you are happy with whoever it is. I will just find a way to live like this day by day.. until the next birth..............
Idiot
I Myself have thought for a lot of time whether what I am going through these days or what i am doing now will count as obsession or not? But I know for sure for now that its not obsession i have .. it is just the repercussions of love.. because you did mean a lot to me and i cant get over you ..
For sometime I was under obsession too. even after your marriage I messaged you a few times when the obsession part in me took over .. I am completely at peace with that now and I am happy actually that you are happy .. but I am not happy that you are not enjoying that happiness with me..
As I have promised I will never stand in your way.. you choose someone else over me ,, and you are happy now.. what does that mean? it means you never required me .. you were self reliant.. it was me who required you and I should have hold on to you.. But at that time i had thought that love should be from both sides and you too should show some intent that you need me.,. you never did that .....even though I had literally begged you to give me a second chance to convince your father.. I am not sure that would have gone well .. but i was ready to try.. i was completely taken back by your father who suddenly started to beg me not to destroy his family.. i am not a hard hearted person not to think that and tell him I want to marry your daughter still..
Now that I think about all that.. I believe that had you given me a second chance to talk to him.. I could have found a way for us to be together.. of course you needed to show some intent too..
Frankly. I never thought you leaving me will affect me this much.. what i am feeling now and experiencing now is beyond the imagination of what I could have ever dreamt of..
And my dear.. this is not obsession.. this is just the other side of love.. the pain..
I wont come in your life.. and I dont want it as long as you are happy with whoever it is. I will just find a way to live like this day by day.. until the next birth..............
Idiot
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