I really feel like i am going through a phase of depression.. I dont have peace of mind unless i am engaged in something. after office hours, engaging in something is not possible as a lot of memories flies past me... I really feel its time i visit a psychiatrist and get help or else i dont know..
Cant read a fiction.. not able to concentrate in studies too.. not interested in hitting gym.. not interested in playing table tennis.. actually these were some things i loved doing.. you know all that.. but now.. nothing excites me .. feels like i have lost everything in my life.. there is no one to talk all these too..
To some extent .. after you left.. ****** helped me to get through a rough phase. I am actually grateful to her for that.I ha gone this far only because she made me to vent out my desperation.I talked to her a bit freely and that actually helped. but that has stopped too ..... i cant blame her as she has her own set of problems.
I have gone into a shell now without any outside world relationship. I never call anyone and nobody calls me too. Good thing about most of your so called friends is that.. you ignore their calls once or twice.... they wont bother again with you.. I have successfully tested that theory and found it effective.
All these actually have increased the intensity of my feeling of depression .... i know that too. But i am not able to get out of it.and i really feel helpless.
Why am i like this?
Idiot
Cant read a fiction.. not able to concentrate in studies too.. not interested in hitting gym.. not interested in playing table tennis.. actually these were some things i loved doing.. you know all that.. but now.. nothing excites me .. feels like i have lost everything in my life.. there is no one to talk all these too..
To some extent .. after you left.. ****** helped me to get through a rough phase. I am actually grateful to her for that.I ha gone this far only because she made me to vent out my desperation.I talked to her a bit freely and that actually helped. but that has stopped too ..... i cant blame her as she has her own set of problems.
I have gone into a shell now without any outside world relationship. I never call anyone and nobody calls me too. Good thing about most of your so called friends is that.. you ignore their calls once or twice.... they wont bother again with you.. I have successfully tested that theory and found it effective.
All these actually have increased the intensity of my feeling of depression .... i know that too. But i am not able to get out of it.and i really feel helpless.
Why am i like this?
Idiot
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