I want to make myself clear .. These emails which I am writing to you are in no way aimed at coming after you again.. That stage had passed long time back the moment you said yes to another guy in the church... These are just musings to keep myself sane ..After all I too must speak out my mind.
Of course on a bad day or two..I had messaged you .. It was when I lost my sanity and I was on the verge of doing something stupid..I regret that even now.. Not because as you told.. ****** Madam, your husband might have seen it.. But because I know myself its not the right thing to do.. Actually I hate a girl who is afraid of her husband seeing a message from her ex..
I dont have any regrets about our relationship ..Nor do I have any feeling that I cheated you.. I was true to you all through the relationship.. You can even recollect that I completely stopped talking to ******** when you didn't like it.. All I cared was you.. But.........
Thats past... and as I said.. I dont want to cause any sort of dent in the life that you have now,.. you decided to leave me like this.. I did come after you asking for second chances to talk to your father after I had issues at my home sorted out..But you had changed entirely by then within a span of a week or two..... how can you change like that easily ? I am still not able to find an answer to that question..
Of course its my mistake .. that I was undone by your father when he actually cried telling me not to destroy his family.. you know what.. I cried that whole night after I told your father I wont come after you.. But I did not realize the depth our relationship had in my heart...It took some days to register that loss.....Of course its my mistake that I broke down talking to your father.. Thats the one thing I have to live with myself for the whole of my lifetime.. Me.. A person who cant even stay strong in front of his girlfriends father and tell him sternly ...
Once again let me make it clear.. I dont have any intention of getting you back or anything like that.. you are happy in your life now.. stay happy like that.. ... But I dont know what my life will be ..
BE HAPPY ALWAYS
Idiot
Of course on a bad day or two..I had messaged you .. It was when I lost my sanity and I was on the verge of doing something stupid..I regret that even now.. Not because as you told.. ****** Madam, your husband might have seen it.. But because I know myself its not the right thing to do.. Actually I hate a girl who is afraid of her husband seeing a message from her ex..
I dont have any regrets about our relationship ..Nor do I have any feeling that I cheated you.. I was true to you all through the relationship.. You can even recollect that I completely stopped talking to ******** when you didn't like it.. All I cared was you.. But.........
Thats past... and as I said.. I dont want to cause any sort of dent in the life that you have now,.. you decided to leave me like this.. I did come after you asking for second chances to talk to your father after I had issues at my home sorted out..But you had changed entirely by then within a span of a week or two..... how can you change like that easily ? I am still not able to find an answer to that question..
Of course its my mistake .. that I was undone by your father when he actually cried telling me not to destroy his family.. you know what.. I cried that whole night after I told your father I wont come after you.. But I did not realize the depth our relationship had in my heart...It took some days to register that loss.....Of course its my mistake that I broke down talking to your father.. Thats the one thing I have to live with myself for the whole of my lifetime.. Me.. A person who cant even stay strong in front of his girlfriends father and tell him sternly ...
Once again let me make it clear.. I dont have any intention of getting you back or anything like that.. you are happy in your life now.. stay happy like that.. ... But I dont know what my life will be ..
BE HAPPY ALWAYS
Idiot
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