Was entirely isolated as usual from everything during office hours.. Mobile switched off.. Not thinking about anything except work... that exercise was working actually and I was getting real peace of mind . Peace of mind because I was not thinking about anything else.
It is entirely my fault as no one else can control my thought process except me and I should be able to make sure such situations doesn't undo my mood ..But I couldn't ...In fact I am allowing myself to get dejected in a way unknowingly..
In the evening though.. today . an email came from net banking with regard to one of the work I was doing and I saw ***** madam name in that. The reply was really ambiguous that I had to call her.. I switched on my phone and called her.. she replied the answer and the work was done.. but I felt some urgency in her voice to finish the talk with me.. maybe it was because of her work pressure.. but that single thought brought me back to my real life situations..
It is entirely my fault as no one else can control my thought process except me and I should be able to make sure such situations doesn't undo my mood ..But I couldn't ...In fact I am allowing myself to get dejected in a way unknowingly..
When such issues happens... ( Such issues normally will happen again and again as long as I am working in the same establishment as you) .. my heart becomes heavier.. I dont know the psychology behind that.. but even now I am feeling that heaviness inside me.....
How do I change all that ? I dont know..
Idiot
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