When I thought for a bit about what I did wring with you.. I understood a big mistake I did.. I came after you even after the breakup
It was because I valued the relationship and didn't want to miss you for life.. Now I know better.. I shouldn't have come after you like all guns blazing.. I should have left you like I never knew you.. One of our mutual friends had told me once that you had never understood what it is to live without me during our relationship.That I was readily available to you whenever you wanted me always. I didn't give much importance to that then.. But now I know better..
Of course you might never have come after me like I did .. because you had by then someone else to talk to while I stay away from you.. You just wanted someone .. it looks like that..
I always followed one principle which I had preached to you multiple times...being one... 2 bodies .. single mind..I believed that when I try to give 100% to you based on that.. you would have done the same with me too.. But it didn't seem like that.. did it? You proved me wrong even though you told me again and again that thats how love should be...
I understand better what happened in those days with me... My long text messages to you.. telling you how angry i am... telling you how desperately i want you.... All these... I should never have done. I should have left you alone and given you space.. I did all that because in my mind there was no such space or gap.. it was .. being one.. and i believed it was the same with you.. I was wrong
It is too late for any realizations ..Better late than never though.. Sorry for my constant pestering in those days .. I didn't realize that you had changed..
I am taking away one thing from this email to you.. I understood that... Being one.. is just a theory.. In real life.. you should give everyone their space...
Idiot
It was because I valued the relationship and didn't want to miss you for life.. Now I know better.. I shouldn't have come after you like all guns blazing.. I should have left you like I never knew you.. One of our mutual friends had told me once that you had never understood what it is to live without me during our relationship.That I was readily available to you whenever you wanted me always. I didn't give much importance to that then.. But now I know better..
Of course you might never have come after me like I did .. because you had by then someone else to talk to while I stay away from you.. You just wanted someone .. it looks like that..
I always followed one principle which I had preached to you multiple times...being one... 2 bodies .. single mind..I believed that when I try to give 100% to you based on that.. you would have done the same with me too.. But it didn't seem like that.. did it? You proved me wrong even though you told me again and again that thats how love should be...
I understand better what happened in those days with me... My long text messages to you.. telling you how angry i am... telling you how desperately i want you.... All these... I should never have done. I should have left you alone and given you space.. I did all that because in my mind there was no such space or gap.. it was .. being one.. and i believed it was the same with you.. I was wrong
It is too late for any realizations ..Better late than never though.. Sorry for my constant pestering in those days .. I didn't realize that you had changed..
I am taking away one thing from this email to you.. I understood that... Being one.. is just a theory.. In real life.. you should give everyone their space...
Idiot
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