I Should try to Make Pain my new Best Friend

To feel pain is natural, but to make it something that ruins your life long after the event has taken place is totally unnatural. 

I am trying to follow this method now.. I cant relieve myself of the pain you have given me however hard I try.. But I should choose not to suffer.. As they say.. to suffer or not is optional and it is time I start doing things that I like..

I should try to feel the pain, learn  and try to improve myself a lot.Yes.. my dear.. Past is past. you choose someone else over me.. and I have to accept that.. I have to live with that.... Whether the pain goes off from me is something else.. I will learn to live with the pain..

I should try to make that pain my new best friend and rely on him to do miraculous things that i have never done.. I am going to try that my dear.. And the depth of the pain inside me will decide how deep rooted the relationship was inside me.. 

Let me try it out..

Idiot